At the close of 2012 I have more questions - but questions - I'm not mad at you. However, I'm ready to move on from 'why' and begin to address when.
When like an enlistment, an appointment, or a date. Something for which I wouldn't dare be late. Like a sit down with the indelible Kristal Lana.
Kristal is in a life-affirming quest to deal with when, like it matters. 'Cause it does matter and also because none of us knows...when. Living with when she has only to stretch out and place her ear to the delicious earth and listen for the next vibration - peace hasn't come from a world of why that would only have her stuck in a blame game - but from the immediate; when I arrive here, when I say that, when I ask for what I want, when I recognize that I am the one...
I've been noticing why for awhile now; I see you as hesitant at the goal line, stammering in indecision or giving your ability away for a good reason not to punch-it-in. I see you waiting for the right excuse to give it away. When seems to be more interested in the nanoseconds, the rhythm of thoughts-to-steps-to-inertia. Get there, it cries - touchdown!
I see that for me there is no more power to be had in answering why. Life is happening for me exactly as it is happening for me. For you it's the same, only it looks different - but happening it is. So when will I open myself to it, and answer when (now...NOW...NOW!) as I'm stepping over the goal? When will you?
Thank you 2012. Good Night.